A Little preChristmas post

A friend was saying the other day, how she was down and someone said to her how blessed she was and she was like, yeah, I'm truly blessed. < but it took a couple days for her to realize they were right. That's where I've been living. Not quite the pity party scean but close. I get so aggravate with myself when I get like this! I've been told I'm too hard on myself and its problaly true :( but I feel so selfish when my mind gets low. Like, I'm being ungrateful or something?. I have another friend who always talks about life being full of flows and lulls. She says that it's a natural order of things.

When I was a kid my mother changed the furniture around once a week . I was always walking into everything. Hence my polar opposit ways. I put things how they look cute and that's how it stays... Forever! Or until we move. I'm the same way about paint. I'm picky when it comes picking out what colors I want but buddy it don't change once its painted. I'm truly a creature if habit. Im convince that my upbringing and scraped up shins had everything to do with that. Who do you know that totals their car and is able to upgrade to one bran new but yet calls and ask them not once, but twice is there anyway to fix the old one. This girl, that's who! So, I'm not down with the whole flow and lull process. This basket case, likes familiarity. 

On a brighter note it almost Christmas!! My fav!!! I love the lights on peoples houses. I love the music on the radio and I love the way my trees make my living room look at night. Isn't Christmas just the best!! I tried to talk Kevin into driving us around to look at lights as we sip hot coco with wiped cream on top. Doesn't that sound nice? I thought so too! Hopefully, we can soon enough! 

The kids get to be in the annual Christmas program this year. This may be Blake's last year to be in it. He will be 17 almost 18 this time next year. He will be a senior in High School. That's amazing to even think. I can remember what he was wearing the frist time I ever seen him. He sucked his thumb, walked on his tiptoes and carried a little white burp cloth around with him where ever he went. So cute. 

Trenton who will be driving (with a parent)  in two months has grownup to fast to. I can remember so much of him being a baby. I think I must have held onto those memories so tight. There forever ingrained in my mind. He was the most beautiful baby. Our baby girl will be a teenager in 7 months! She's every parents dream child. So good. She's never gave us a bit of trouble. CeAnna is beautiful inside and out. One of our favorite things to do is watch all our previous Christmas videos. We sit and watch them for hours. We laugh at all the cute things they said and talk about where each present is now. Which almost always is " I have no clue where that is" or "what happen to that?" It's the memories that count anyway, right? I hope you all have a very merry Christmas this year and remember don't rearrange too much you'll cause your kids to need therapy ;)